I’ve come home. To the closest home, I have that presently exists. The irony is that I never actually lived in the home itself. 

The default was having left Bali Indonesia on an airplane directed by both eastern and western doctors. I apparently was ill, quite ill, so I was instructed to return to the US, which meant to my family to assist me in functioning. They happened to live in North Carolina by then. Although I had not lived in North Carolina, I need to land there.  So on 9/11/04, I did.

Three months later 300,000 + people died during the largest Tsunami to have hit South East Asia. That Christmas morning I was on my knee’s in sincere gratitude for the fact that I was alive, in the US, and not as planned in S.E Asia. But having been sent away on that airplane that day.

Although living in North Carolina between the end of 2004- 2009 was a mere 5 years, it was awkward, uncomfortable and enlightening all mixed tougher. I taught 1600 children at a river water quality organization. I taught 500 children art at public and private schools. I taught young adults sociology and leadership at a prestigious University. I trained and became a certified yoga teacher. I stopped using alcohol and other substances entering into sobriety. 

And then when the moment was right I propelled myself to an island in the ocean. That was awkward too. But it saved my life. There I lived on three islands, studied for 9 years alternative healing and healed myself of mental, emotional and physical limitations. I worked for several millionaires, started my own education program, created a juice business, started offering global healing and reading sessions to clients and stayed away from the rest of the world.

Why? Because in order to serve the world I had to find what it meant to be in truth. Our paradigm in which exists is quite confusing.  It’s contracting, limiting and complex. The earth, oceans, nature, tree’s, plants, sun and moon, they are all steady, solid and aligned. I wanted to align myself with those sources. Rather than sources constructed by humans.

I made friends with Hawaiian’s, Japanese, Okinawan, Filipino and other American’s. I lived in the country, in the jungle, on the ocean, in the forest and alone. I found that we are all really here for the same reason and that no one is different. It just might look like we are.

However, we all want one thing. To be seen. To have someone see us. To have someone see us in an unbiased way. To have someone see us in a way that is nurturing. To have someone see us in a way that is healing. To have someone see us in a way that is truthful.

So rather than learn how to teach sociology, leadership, environmental education, art, nutrition, yoga, meditation…. I’ve learned how to see people.

I had to cleanse myself, including my mind, my heart, my body and my soul. I connected myself to the source, to nature, to the planet and all of creation. In doing so, I connected to the unlimitedness of existence and the unlimited potential of creation. I connected to the truth, the raw, vulnerable truth of what we are really here on the earth to accomplish.

In that truth, I have found, so much of our world is an illusion. I discovered my purpose is to awaken people up from those illusions. And that in doing so, it has to be fun, light-filled and drama free. For in engaging in negativity will only bring more negativity. Therefore my life purpose is to heal through light, love, and beauty.

For that, I will take every moment to find what it means to live in those ways.  When I myself need to calibrate again to those truths, I will set forth on a course unknown to be reminded.  Which is what I am presently doing. Thank you all for being apart of my path.  I am so grateful for the opportunities to live, awake and serve.